I'm so angry right now
and upset
and annoyed
and pissed off
and ughhhh!

Maybe moving schools is a good idea,
my friends don't bother replying on msn
the best friend makes other plans over the ones we've already made
boys are just stupid and gay and shitheads
the ones you like, never like you back

This always happens,
I get a good feeling about making a strong decision,
and then you leave me alone for a couple of hours and I get so so so insecure.

The truth is,
I don't really fit in anywhere.
I'll probably never find a group or a person who'll completely understand me.

Taylor Swift depresses me
but I can't stop listening to her.
It always seems whenever I'm down, everyone else in the world is havingthe best of times.
Fuck this I have to work tomorrow too.

No-one will go to the city with me on Monday.
Truth is the only reason I probably want to go out there is to see City Boy.
How fucking sad.

You know what else sucks,
the only reason I probably want to see him is because he gives me attention.
He told me I was the most prettiest, most cutest girl ever.
It's been a a while.

'All you've ever wanted was to wanted'

Fuck, I'm sad.
Fuck, it's probably cause I'm 'clingy'
I don't know if it would be described as that.
I like constant text messages, I like affection. I like to know I'm on someone's mind.

Pray to God,
I can stop all this miserable shit.
I want to be happy and confident. I don't want to care if boys like me or not. I want to have fun fun fun al the time. I want to meet someone who'll understand me, someone who I can click with, even if we have nothing in common.
I want it to rain and pour down so hard.
The sun shines so bright these days, so why can't I?

Maybe, I should just stop being the one who says Hi to City Boy.
Maybe, I should grace the city with my presence and hope to God he notices me and I'll take his breath away.

I feel okay, less shitty and miserable and angry.

Zach is calling me, hopefully he makes me feel better.
he's one of the funniest people I know.